Making Love 2 Hate

For a fact now,its a little smooth in my relationship.But I can't deny there's a few kinks here & there.I don't find it much of a concern now because I just feel lost at what I'm going to do & achieve in life.Its just dragging me down the idea of feeling incompetent at what I'm doing,and not knowing the labels.Either I'm too ignorant or I choose to have my own mind where I don't take references from anyone.To be in the dark so whatever ideas that you have,you know that you're subconsciously not inspired by anyone.I cave in.I know my personal self is not strong enough right now and I need to be better;for myself 1st and not anyone.