Exhausted Heels

Getting exhausted.Putting on make up,smiling,breaking the ice & trying to make small talk.It just gets draining.The whole process is draining me out every single day because it doesnt make any difference.It really doesnt.And of course on top of that I can feel myself switching souls with my boyfie;I'm more short-fused now.Its just darn crazy.I'm tired of this.At times I wanted to pull the plug on everything;everything I've stood for and worked for because I don't feel anything anymore.I cannot find who I am anymore,I would love to pick up my camera again,I would love to draw & paint & renew my vows for art & definitely just ease my mind.Retail has driven me to be a monster.Truly.