What Do I Do?Otokajo?

We are talking again.I dont understand what I'm gonna do or what is to be done but I'm just sure that I wanna find out.I'm pretty sure he wont jump into things so soon now but I guess I'm just gonna say that I like you and I dont know whether you feel the same but just being cautious but I felt something in your eye that day when you were feeling down and I made you laugh with a cruel joke.I felt that spark and twinkle in your eye.I guess it might just be me,but soon,I just need to know,even if silently.

Making Things Ryte Aint Easy;If Dey Were Nvr Wrong 2 Begin Wiv.

You know,I think I Found back my love for him.

I Tink I'm Really Nt His Type

I have no doubt now.I'm In a state of confusion.Numb confusion.

Dance In A Trance

Getting up early in the morning is a hassle.It hurts your eyes,your body and your mind,physically and mentally.Waking up not knowing what you're doing and what you're gonna do in future is even worse.Nothing to look forward to;love lost and fighting for something which you wouldn't know you'd gain.Thinking about HIM everyday when you know you're not suppose to.Finding a purpose to hate him but you just can't.Den waking up beside a man,metaphorically,who is suddenly a complete stranger to you after being in a relationship for 5 years.I cant answer how important to him anymore.I just cant.Its confusing me and making me numb.Numb with questions to answers that I cant find.I just need to be alone.Swirling in my own vortex of nothingness.I've also hated what I've become.Whiny.I've become whiny.Its just all painfully clumping together.I did not respect him or his privacy.I need to achieve something bigger in my life.Dun wanna wake up like this anymore.

I Kip Tinking Bout U

i saw u in a different light today. you were so full of raw emotions. i am taken aback. its abit disturbing. i'm not sure whether its e best thing 2 do to even travel wiv u. i am not so sure about anytin anymore. it jus confuses me even more. you are my fren n u say such things. hw culd u. u r all messed up and confused. you make feel like a total utter slut wen infact e situation varies immensely. i feel you nid to regain back evrytin. how can u be so low in self esteem wen evry guy on earth tinks u're hot? i am jus nothing compared 2 you yet u are acting dis way. i'm deeply sad. deeply. i feel happy evrytime i luk back at that night wher we took our 1st picture 2ghthr. it feels so right. i'm sorry but for the 1st time i didnt care wat others mite tink. i jus wanted u to b happy. i wuld trade places wiv u even so u can be happy again. i duno wat else 2 do. i'm so lost and even more confused. i can't find clarity anymore. i jus can't.