Dance In A Trance

Getting up early in the morning is a hassle.It hurts your eyes,your body and your mind,physically and mentally.Waking up not knowing what you're doing and what you're gonna do in future is even worse.Nothing to look forward to;love lost and fighting for something which you wouldn't know you'd gain.Thinking about HIM everyday when you know you're not suppose to.Finding a purpose to hate him but you just can't.Den waking up beside a man,metaphorically,who is suddenly a complete stranger to you after being in a relationship for 5 years.I cant answer how important to him anymore.I just cant.Its confusing me and making me numb.Numb with questions to answers that I cant find.I just need to be alone.Swirling in my own vortex of nothingness.I've also hated what I've become.Whiny.I've become whiny.Its just all painfully clumping together.I did not respect him or his privacy.I need to achieve something bigger in my life.Dun wanna wake up like this anymore.