It Just Wont Go Away

Help me please.Enlighten me in what I should be doin with my life because I dont feel good in doing anything anymore.Things are just plain boring and lifeless.My love life is currently fine.Cant complain.But I do have blackout instances where I would forget who he really is to me and as to why I'm there with him.6 months and counting.Yet of course not a boring moment but somehow now,I feel,it just doesnt feel right.Somethings missings from before.From me getting to know the real him.Perhaps its just me being a pessimist.He does adore me.Holly Shit.I'm honestly dead tired from last night's tossing & turning.Its just horrible.I couldnt sleep well and felt like somethings bothering me,I have no idea what.But I dreamt of something reall weird.Super weird to the core.