I Jus Wana Lash

I've always thought that I culd survive this fall, but turns out you hit rocks on the way down. By the time you hit rock bottom, you have enough cuts and bruises to feel the full impact of your fall. I am clueless to what I'm doing now. I am contented. I am happy. But wats happiness? How long can one sustain dis happiness till it fades away as soon as it came. I had evrytin. I'm close to having nothing. I made mistakes that is hard to repair and in life, you only make one mistake and the block comes tumbling down; like a game of jenga. I'm tired. I'm quite frankly not in the mood for work anymore. I jus wana take a long vaca. I have so many urges to quit. Quitting seems the easiest thing to do but the hardest thing to accomplish. Verbalizing seems to be th easiest thing to do but again the hardest to string your words. I like you. Alot. I've bin trying to avoid you since I noe ur feelings for me were never dere and aint never gona be dere. I jus dun wana get caught and fall deeper. I noe how lethal the potential of my raging emotions can be. I jus dun wana emerse myself in repercussions that I've caused on an instant bad moment. I didnt confess and I didnt make it known. Once i tot i culd trust all of you but each day my trust is dying inside. I'm never gona love you guys ever again.